My Dreams to God's Will

7 months of good break! I have to say, God's timing and ways of making things work always exceed what we could imagined. The plot-twist of how I ended up with this job is more ‘geng’ (powerful) than K-drama.

I've gotten 2 job offers, both has it pros and cons, and I have 7 days to consider which path to move on. I'm here to share how God reset the way I see things in these few days.

DAY 1 -3

At first, I thought that the later offer was a MIRACLE from God for me to get into the industry that I desire. Yet, it turned out to be a turning point God used for me to have my breakthrough.

1. Know Who God Created You To Be.

“Too often we work things backwards. We decide on the results we want and then pray that God will bless our decision, and we try desperately to fit into the mold that is demanded.”

quoted from Common Career Mistakes and How to Avoid Them

Since young, I’ve always wanted to work alongside with those celebrities that I admire. Seeing them on-screen from TV shows & dramas, thinking how glamourous it would be to get to work with your favorite artist (even imagined those “Star fell in love with fans” kind of plot to happen). Hence, it later became the foundation of how I crafted my career path.

At the age of 12, I wanted to be an actress, because I was so into HK ancient drama that time. When I reached 15, I decided to study broadcast, because I wanted to be the MV director for my fav. singer-artist (mainly BIGBANG & Fahrenheit). And I think it was 2nd year of college, I decided not to pursue production, and changed to become an artist manager. That was when the China entertainment rises up, and I was mainly into Jackson Wang & Hua Chen Yu.

So, as you know, I quit my previous job to pursue my dream in working in the entertainment field, one of it was that I applied for Team Wang… However, I’m not here to talk about my job application process; I’m here to share how God changed the way I think and helped me to look deeper to find out who I am created to be.

Not sure how viral is this news – “Singer Hua Chen Yu has a daughter”. I am a hardcore fan of Hua! And hearing this news, I was so heartbroken. Then, a thought came to my mind – “What for I worked so hard to get in to the entertainment industry?” … Wait! Does this sounded like, “My crush is married, hence, what’s the point of……?” Hmm… it got me thinking – My passion is in the person or the industry itself?

A friend once asked me, so what if I finally get in to that entertainment company that I’ve been longing for, but the celeb who started it ‘retired’, still the company remains, will I continue to work there? (me: I will be so disappointed, lost, and I will leave)

Scenario 2: Personally, I’m totally not a sales person, but what if one day I’m being told an opportunity to work with my favorite artist, but I have to do sales. Will I say ‘yes’?

Like a wake-up call – Did I built my career goals and so called ‘dreams’ on the foundation of the celebrities that I admire (idolized)? Do I ever searched deep down within myself, to fully understand who [Tricia] wants to be? What do I really love and enjoy doing? What are the God-gifted talents and abilities I hold?... And that's my homework to find out.

“If we are going to be successful in career selection decisions, we must identify our talents, abilities, and personalities; understand how they can best be used; and then turn the results over to God.”

taken from Common Career Mistakes and How to Avoid Them

DAY 4

To be honest, one of the offer wasn’t on my plan, so choosing it means that I’m relying God to guide me on every single step.

2. My Ways Are Not Your Ways. (Isaiah 55:8)

I was doing my devotion, asking God how. And there's this inner voice telling me, if I take the other offer that's within my expectation, which means, I’m still on 'my plan'.

What God taught me here is much similar to what I wrote while I’m considering the first offer before the second one came in - What If I Don't Get What I Want?

DAY 5

Deep down, I still want to give it a try on that 'dream', to fulfill that desire of what I've been wanting for so long. Hence, I prayed again.

3. No Matter Where You Go, I Will Be With You. I Am The One That Matters.

I felt like I’m that rebellious kid that insist to pursue her dream and do things her way. Yet, the Father is so gentle, caring, patient and understanding to let her be. God said, no matter where I go, He will still be with me.

The who, what, when, why, how doesn’t really matter that much, because we were created to find delight in Him, and Him only.

Surrender ≠ Give Up. Surrender is an act of faith knowing that whatever we have, including our goals, our wealth, our talent are nothing compared to God’s position in our heart. It’s okay to pursue our dreams and passion, God wants us to be happy too, but we have to remember that we can never let this ‘dream’ take over God’s throne in our heart & life, not even sharing. (Exodus 34:14)

“His call on your life is greater than you can even imagine. But, don’t obsess over the gifts and His call. Be fulfilled in Him and everything else will be added onto you.”

When we said, “God, I surrender my future to You”, does not mean that I’m not making any plans or action for my future, but in every planning, I put God first.

“For it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose.” - Philippians 2:13

Day 6

Until now, I have basically made up my mind, but being human, there's this part of me not willing to let go of the other option, because both have their own attractive sides, and I'm just afraid what if I let go of the other, I will never ever came across such great opportunity again.

4. Don’t Be Worried of the Troubles We See Now (2 Corinthians 4:18)

“So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen.”

I know this is somehow confusing for certain people. How can we fix gaze on things that cannot be seen? But Yes. That’s what the Word said.

I can’t see the God-planned future of mine. I can’t see God’s promises that’s yet to happen. Yet, that shouldn’t stop me from fixing my gaze on them, having faith and trust that God will soon reveal His glory in His perfect timing, like He always did. If God can open this open door today, He is able to open another greater one tomorrow. Never let the troubles in front of you stop you from experiencing the good that God has prepared for you.

Day 7

You never know what God can do until the last second. Just when I'm ready to reply, God changed how the story ends, in a way that was totally out of my expectation. However, I believe this is God's best arrangement in His perfect timing.

5. My Dreams >> to >> God's Will

I remembered very clearly, when I received that second offer, I heard the word "MIRACLE" so loud in me. Yes! It is a miracle, but in God's way.

I'm glad that I did not rush things out and took time to let God speak and work in me. I never experience an encounter such as this, it feels like a 'level-up' in my faith. This whole journey is literally like taking lessons in school, from high school level to a master degree.

God first broke the 'mold' that I framed myself in and made me realized who He created me to be. God then moved on to revealed that His ways are greater than all my plans, hence, follow His guide. After that, God went deeper to show me that nothing else matters, HE is the One that I should be focusing on. All the things that I considered, worried, troubled for so long are nothing (not important) compare to God. It is this simple!

I love this phrase taken from Pr Steven Furtick - The Momentum of A Decision's sharing: "The deepest things God will do in our life start shallow."

Today, if you came across this article, I just want you to know that sometimes you don't need to think too much or too deep and complicate things, because all you have to do is just one simple thing - know that He is God and fix your gaze on Him.

You know when I rise and when I fall, When I come or go, You see it all. You know every detail of my life, You are God and You don't miss a thing.

taken from one of my favorite worship song called "You Know Me".